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The Irony of Life – I wish I Didn’t Wish
Life is really so ironic, that’s why to enjoy things while they are good and just be strong when things are not good. Looking back, almost seven years ago I felt being left behind, my friends and classmates were already professionals, some of them were teachers, nurses, engineers and etc., while me was just a wife and a blogger who earned from my own little life. I am happy, but secretly I want to be like them, I want to have a career, I want to be a professional too.
Fast forward, today I am professional like I wanted to be, but I am not happy. I lost everything I had when I wish to be like them, regrets are late and I can’t turn back the time nor wake up like it was just a dream. Life was really so ironic, me wanting more made me lost everything. Indeed, you can’t really have a cake and eat it too!
Honestly, there are times depression is eating me in, the desire of wanting to reset my life and start from the very start again is bugging me. I wanted to correct the bad choices I make, and to avoid the wrong people I have met in my so called life, but the sad truth resetting my life only means dying because time machines were not actually real.
Vibrant Odiongan – Your Heart Your Home Your Future
Odiongan as the center of trade and commerce in the Province of Romblon, had come a long way towards progress and development.
Today, Padyak para sa Kalikasan and the tourism tagline and logo #VibrantOdiongan (Your Heart Your Home Your Future) was launched and the new seal of the Municipality of Odiongan was also unveiled and presented at Odiongan Park Plaza in the leadership of Mayor Trina with the Sangguniang Bayan Members.
The event was attended by employees from different department and offices, as well as private individuals. As the master of ceremony jokingly says the launching was a grandiose event as Mayor Trina provided snacks for everyone (lol).
Nothing much to write right now, it was been a long time since I dragged myself to write something in my blog and I am currently remembering how to write again. #lmao
Writing Is An Outlet For Me to Express My Emotions
Life became so busy these past few months, yep here am I again starting a blog post with this line. I have been procrastinating lately, a friend had told me that I only write when I am feeling sad, maybe because writing became an outlet for me to release my hidden emotions and stressed.
Well, I have many things to write and I will try to write more soon, but it looks like I can’t write personal experiences and feelings anymore in this blog, as my friends are starting to notice.
I will be back soon!
The Teaching Profession: Talk Show Presentation of What is a Great Teacher?
It was before Christmas vacation when we are given a group task in one of our subject in school, to be presented the next year when class resumed. We all procrastinated, we really didn’t do preparation until the day it has to be presented. The task is we have to create acronyms for the word “Great Teacher” and do a presentation about it. We already have rough draft on what to do we decided to do a talk show, but less than two hours before our class we revised the content of our talk show.
A talk show will not be a talk show without a host, and as expected I was appointed to be the host. It was my first time doing it, our talk show runs about inviting my elementary teacher whom also celebrating her 80th birthday (play by an older classmate) who made a great impact in my life during my elementary days, and I have also invited some of her former pupils (other group mates) to wish her happy birthday and leave messages, tell stories based on the acronym we made with the word “Great Teacher”.
Our presentation started by someone creating an intro, and when it is my turn I was mental blocked at first, not knowing what to say next. It was an impromptu acting which mean it is unscripted, when I started speaking and moving I lost all my pretensions and I ate not just the floor, but almost the whole time of our class leaving a little time to the next presenter (lol), our teacher even complained that we almost eat up all the memory of his phone and it literally heated up, he recorded a video of every presentation eh. I was told by a group mate to avoid speaking English all the time, because our other group mates were feeling nervous, but I know I can’t do it, if I started speaking Tagalog, I will forgetting my act and what to say.
Anyway, our group presented these acronyms for Great Teacher; Giving, Reinforcer, Encourager, Advance Thinker, Tenacious, Trustworthy, Engaging, Appreciative, Committed, Humble, Endearing and Respectful.
First Irony of the New Year
It is the new year, I have told my sister that I will start losing weight this year. She chuckled and said, you will gain more weight, it is year of the pig! (lol).
The class has resumed yesterday, I have been busy these past few days making assignments and between making an assignment, I am tweaking my WordPress Themes in this blog, as you can notice my theme is now a bit smaller, I have removed the other sidebar to make my blog mobile-friendly. The first assignment was given before the holiday vacation, but I just work with it. Blame it to my mañana habit or to my procrastinating self, I have enjoyed the holiday slacking off at home, sleeping and reading lots of things, well I think even my friends at school did the same.
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It was a good thing we had no class yesterday, we are just told to submit our assignment and we can go home and that’s where a friend had asked me if I have already heard what had happened to one of our friends, it turns out a scandal broke online which I am not aware because I abstained from using social media these past few days. I was shocked, in-disbelief, sad on what I have heard. I can’t imagine my friend’s pain and depression, I have sent her messages and told her to be strong, not to overthink and I am just around if she needs someone to talk with, but she remained silent, send short responses and sorry, she might not be ready yet to face the world. It was also this time of the year when I deactivated my Facebook years ago and it was also time of the year when her world turn gray and dull, that shocked all of us, it is ironic that when I am not around online in social media something depressing happened to her.
I was sad because I have told her many times to find a nice guy, and not to pick someone like picking a hammer that she will use to hit her own head at the end, to find a guy that will be able to accept her and her kids, someone free and no attachment, but I guess she didn’t listen. I hope she will remain strong for her kids and family and I hope she will be able to talk to us freely one day and be able to smile and laugh again.
Year-End Party with The Clan
The clan held a year end party in the new year, this is my second time to attend it and I think it is the 3rd or 4th time it was done, it was rushed decision actually. It was just decided on Christmas day and a family meeting was made in the 27th to finalize it, after the practiced of the wedding entourage for my aunt’s golden wedding celebration.
The year end program didn’t start early because there was a New Year’s service at church which I have attended, but even if the service was finished the program didn’t start right away since most of the members of the clans are not around yet, they are still taking their time off at their homes.
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As expected, the program started late and it was not properly prepared. The kids have an intermission number, literally they were just asked to dance by following what’s on the screen and the adults were requested to have one as well, an aunt and two cousins did it to everyone’s laughter, afterwards there was nothing else to do so games followed, I hosted three games after an older cousin hosted one, I have to encourage them big time to participate, then exchange gifts and then dinner follows.
Everyone was almost finished eating when 12 o’clock strikes, my young cousins had fun playing with fire crackers, sky rockets and fireworks, then someone in the village had a firework display to everyone’s excitement. Then everyone started to go home when one o’clock in the morning came, there are few who are left who sing videoke and karaoke. My sister, few of my cousins and I were left, my sister and I cannot sleep yet because our sound system were outside, they were the one used for the clan’s year end party.
It was almost four o’clock in the morning when I finally able to sleep, and after 2 hours and half, I am already awake to start my first day of 2019.
Attending My Aunt and Uncle’s Golden Wedding Anniversary Party
Wedding anniversary is one of the joyous occasion for married couple, it was the time where they have look back at their wedding day and the years that had passed by. The golden anniversary is one of the most celebrated wedding anniversaries, by both the married couple themselves and by their friends and family. Most married couple has their own story to tell, they have their own little dramas, obstacles, problems and happiness.
Only few had ever reach the so called “Golden Wedding Anniversary” since most marriage today end up with break-ups and divorce. Most couple today were easy to give up with each other, they easily get tired of constant nagging from the wife or husband, they made small issues larger, they were easy to get hurt and collect resentments, they let their pride took toll and both speak at the same time without listening and understanding what other has to say, without knowing and accepting each other’s weaknesses and fears, they grow apart rather than together.
Anyway, the other day my eldest aunt and her husband celebrated their “50th wedding anniversary” or what they called Golden Wedding Anniversary, their kids planned renewal of vows and party for them. Their marriage isn’t perfect, they fought like crazy as witness of their union says, like there comes a time my furious aunt almost cut her husband’s arm with a rusty bolo, that made my uncle do a trip to the hospital, so it was astonishing that they reached 50 years together, either they really love each other or both of them became delusional and just look at the positive traits of each other rather than looking at their negative traits and weaknesses.
The wedding ceremony was held at Lyns Fern Garden as well as the reception to save time, effort and money in decorating the church. It was a successful event attended by relatives, friends and workmates of the celebrators. I was primarily requested by my cousin to be the photographer of the event, but I declined because my DSLR camera is acting up or the mirror seems broken, it produces white blank images when shooting especially during the day. It was my long goal to buy a new one, but it seems the more you dream for something, the more it became elusive.
Well, I wore the red shoes on the said event after much deliberation on what to wear. I shopped those shoes on my cousins wedding, two years ago but I didn’t end up wearing them. The wedding ceremony was done like how the normal wedding was done except there are no cord and veil ceremony anymore, after which, dinner was served.
Christmas Gifts from Friends and Relatives
There was a short drama last Christmas eve that disturbed the celebration, someone short-circuited after drinking too much, went emotional and flared up. Instead of feeling happy that time, we have been busy looking after my mother who had a panic attacked, I went too nervous and scared.
Anyway, as I looked back on Christmas day it wasn’t bad after all. Contrary to other Christmases where I bought myself, my own gifts, I have received gifts from friends and relatives, not just one but three gifts.
It was on the 23rd when we are eating dinner when someone call out my name to buy ice pack, I was a bit disturbed because it was me who has to go outside when I am not near the door since it was me who is called, before I can even frown at the person outside (lol), she handed me two packs of something into my surprise (a special barquiron and Ube Piaya) which is two of my favorite PH native delicacies, was told it was for me which made me too thankful. It was an unexpected gift from a second cousin’s wife, because were really not too close.
On Christmas day, my sister’s bf came home with three Toblerone’s in hand after being outside. One of them was given to me, it turns out, our youngest aunt gave it to him for us. I always feel happy and joyful every time I received Toblerone on Christmas day because it reminds me of the time where it was just a dream for the little me. When I was a kid, I have wished to receive Toblerone too on Christmas day when another kid got it as a white gift from his relatives one Christmas night. During those times Toblerone had been just for rich kid/families and for a dirt poor like us, all we can afford is the cheap chocolates in the store (lol).
Anyway, it is not a secret that I love chocolates and cats, but only few people know that I love collecting pens and notebooks, most of my money in Korea were spent in Watsons and yep Daiso, that is why half of my junks in Korea where notebooks, booklets and art materials. That is why I am so ecstatic when a friend and his little son handed me a notebook journal as a Christmas gift.
Honestly, I seldom received gifts from other people and I think it is the first time I received a Christmas gift from friends and with that thank you so much!
Christmas Day: A Time for Celebration or A Time for Brokenness?
Christmas is a time of celebration, the time where people should be merry and happy. On the 24th it was my late grandma’s birthday so I lit a candle for her while everyone is busy cooking for the Christmas food, I thought everything is going to be well, not until something happened. It was shocking, I don’t know if I should feel nervous first or should I cry first. It feels so bad that I want to escape the moment, I want to run and never come back. I am tired, I wanted rest.
We decided to sleep early and didn’t wait for 12 AM anymore, when I wake up it is already morning and the fear, the sadness is still there lingering. I hate drama, all I wanted is peaceful living that is why when something happened between my sis bf and other relatives, I decided to withdraw from their drama and be at peace.
Well, it is Christmas day today and it feels empty, I went to church in the early morning and the basis of the sermon was from Luke 2: 1-7, with the theme Jesus – The Reason for the Season, where Pastor E talks about the birth of Jesus Christ and what is Christmas all about, he said that Christmas is a time of Celebration, Proclamation and Demonstration. He also said, we cannot celebrate Christmas if there is no joy in our hearts, so I guess there isn’t joy in mine.
Pastor E then shared a short story and afterwards asked if how is our heart doing, if is there is also something hard in our heart that we cannot forgive, open our hearts and be good with our brothers and sisters.
Anyway, after church most of our relatives went to our house for Christmas food. As expected, it was a bit of chaos with little children playing around and adults talking to each other, and it was decided that the clan will have the annual New Year’s party.
Christmas Day is not red or green, it is blue. #ChristmasBlues
A Simple Christmas Fellowship in Church
The celebration of Christmas fellowship in church was quite different from the previous years, it wasn’t held in the evening of 23rd anymore nor the 24th. It was held after Sunday service since 23rd day of December fell on Sunday, there was a fellowship lunch but I decided to went home and eat and returned when the Christmas program was about to start.
The Christmas program isn’t meticulous like the previous years where there was Christmas Cantata and presentations, the fellowship today was just simply made of few presentation from auxiliary organizations (youth and women), games, exchange gifts and raffles and a simple snacks there after.
Honestly, I don’t know what is happening but it seems the old Christmas tradition in the church is slowly fading and changing. When I am still a kid, I remember there was role playing in church and I have even joined a Christmas concert back then when I really don’t know how to sing, and it was the last time I have joined group singing because when I went to back into my chair feeling happy after performing with the other kids, an aunt blurted out that I sing too loud when I am out of tune (lol).