My life isn't great like everyone thought it was, I deactivated my Facebook account so I will not see my friend's happy updates and pictures, so people will stop the comparison and will stop asking me a lot of questions I can't answered but recently I have decided to activate my Facebook account so I could just send comforting message to a friend and then I didn't deactivated my account anymore so people will stop looking for me and create speculations why I am gone. My account is activated but I just stop opening it and posting updates, I really don't post things in Facebook, I just love uploading photos back then but when things didn't go well I posted my life drama in Facebook but it wasn't in public, it was only me, J's friends and family can see it. It was immaturity and so pathetic but no one can blame me that time because I am helpless, I have no where to run and no one to talk too. The other line is cut, the door was shut, the peace treaty was denied and rejected. My family didn't even know what I am going through they just knew it when I cried helplessly like someone dies and then later two friends online knew it since they asked me questions that I can't take the burden alone anymore, it was already too heavy to carry I decided to open up and show them my private wall. Naturally, I really don't ask for help unless I can't carry the burden anymore and I am helpless.
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Face your problems, don't Facebook them
I have fearlessly face my problem, I swallowed my pride and I tried to settle things on the best way I can but I wasn't fortunate enough so what choice do I have but to ask sympathy from people whom I think can help me without laughing at me? Unfortunately unknown to me I only created a mess and dig further hole that will serve as my graveyard. Well, looking at the bright side it's a way better than keeping my problems into myself and ending my life fearlessly, isn't it? Yes, a lot of people decided to end their life because they have no one to talk too because of fear being ridiculed and back stabbed.
Are you Emotionally Immature?
Through, learning and knowing myself even more I have figured out I am emotionally immature in some aspects, I am extremely challenging to deal with because I am impaired when reacting to life's challenges and trials. I tried to control the world around me and wanted it to be perfect and harmonious rather than accepting the pit falls, I can't let go of my negative emotions, fear, grief and insecurity. I don’t have the skills or experience to cope with reality that life isn't always fair, that I can't control things around me. I am poor in decision making, I can't even decide for myself nor go out alone without being push over. I have never been in a relationship until I marriage so I guess it is also one of the contributing factor why I am emotionally immature.
How to Become Emotionally Mature?
It only took a heart-break for me to learn the road to emotional maturity. Realizing life isn’t perfect, I have to wake up and become fully conscious that living in the present matters. I have to learn from my mistake rather than blaming myself that it happens because I am lacking because the reality we are not all perfect, we all lack in everything and finding a person that will fill those things we're lacking will make us complete so instead of belittling someone we should encourage them to grow and don't make a smallest mistake into a big deal. Nobody encourages me to grow, all the people around me blame me for everything that it happens because I don't listen. :(
Immaturity is one of the major problems that can ruin a strong relationship. - Unknown
It was right that we cannot return to the past to correct our mistakes but we can always start a new beginning. Just like how erasers were made for those who made mistakes so they could write a new story.
Sources:
- http://www.crosswalk.com/family/marriage/doctor-david/are-you-emotionally-immature.html
- http://www.examiner.com/article/signs-of-emotional-immaturity
- http://mamiverse.com/traits-emotionally-immature-men-69605/
- http://hotalphafemale.com/2011/02/how-to-tell-she-is-emotionally-immature.html
- http://www.eharmony.com/dating-advice/relationships/what-an-emotionally-mature-man-looks-like/
- http://www.rogerkallen.com/how-to-become-emotionally-mature/
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