Things have not been easy for me lately. My appointment was invalidated by the CSC, along with those of other newly hired employees, because of a simple mistake caused by the negligence of our former HR. It was incredibly difficult to accept. The weight of everything felt overwhelming, as if problems kept coming one after another without giving me time to breathe.
Yet somehow, I also saw it differently, it felt like this situation freed me from a burden, from bad luck, or from a heavy aura that had been surrounding me for a long time.
My appointment, or my hiring under the previous administration, was never smooth from the beginning. It came with struggles, tears, and heartache. It also came with insults from someone I choose not to name, words and actions that deeply hurt me but that I endured in silence.
What made things even more painful was dealing with two workmates who seemed to hate me intensely for no clear reason. No matter how much we tried to understand or make sense of it, we could not find any reason why they resented me so deeply.
It was only recently that the truth started to unfold. I discovered that someone I once called a friend had been the one holding the sword behind my back. This person told different stories to them - saying one thing to me and another to others, creating misunderstandings, feeding negativity, and silently causing division.
As a result, relationships were damaged, trust was broken, and I found myself carrying pain I did not deserve. What hurts the most is not just the betrayal itself, but the fact that it came from someone I trusted and considered a friend.
Still, through all of this, I am learning. I am learning that not everyone who smiles at you truly wishes you well. I am learning to protect my peace, to value honesty, and to be more careful about who I let into my life.
Painful as this experience has been, I believe it is teaching me something important. Sometimes endings, even painful ones, are not losses but redirections. Perhaps this chapter is closing to make space for something better, something healthier, lighter, and meant for me.
And despite everything, I choose to move forward, not with bitterness, but with wisdom, strength, and faith that better days are ahead.
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