Dreams, Vision, Connection and Past Life Regression

Every night I always had a dream but most of the time I forgot what is it after going to the bathroom to pee.  I have been blogging my dreams but due to intermittent connection I didn't bother documenting it again.

Anyway, since I was young I knew I was an old soul.  I knew I was born before but I just don't know when and how I live my life and how many times I was born. When I met an accident when I was young, I was hit and run-over by motorcycle I have recollection on how I live my life as a kid, it was like they were flashback right on my eyes and then all I remember I was going down in a spiral and I woke up asking for a water.  I have never told anyone about it because I have thought it was normal.

Moreover, I always have recurring dream of being in a familiar place when in reality I have never been there and I can't remember the place in my dream. I have dreamed often too being a child living in a different planet,  I see fires, burning city, flying metal objects just like how the city in Jean Claude Van Damme's movie Universal Soldier I didn't think about it that much maybe because it was just created by my brain when I was asleep.

Growing up, I enjoyed reading mystery, horror and metaphysical stories. I am fascinated with the theory of reincarnation, I can spend my whole day reading stories about it, lately I have been reading new stories again. It was been my long wish to do past life regression but I just don't know how to find people that could help me with it.  I search about how to do it alone and last night before going to sleep when everything is silent I tried to do it, it was hard for me to concentrate because it is either my hand felt itchy or my foot does,  after trying so hard I saw a vision, I have seen a yellow flower in a vase in a door to the balcony (maybe that's why I prefer yellow flower than the red ones), dark dirty water seeing it from below, a hospital bed then I felt anxious so I went out the imaginary door and rest  to an imaginary chair.  When I went in the door again,  I saw a train coming, I have heard its sound, I am in a station, it wasn't the present era, it was in sepia, the train looks like running through a steam engine there was a lot of people rushing I was feeling frantic because I couldn't see myself, I want to see myself on this period and then I saw a beautiful sophisticated woman wearing sophisticated black dress with a black hat just like how Audrey Hepburn was, she has pearl earrings and she was very beautiful white female like a celebrity, then my vision hop seeing an Asian small old man sitting at the corner of his hospital bed, he is wearing a hospital pajama and as if he is waiting for someone, a visit from family maybe but there was a thought that he is all alone then I came back feeling tired and empty, I fell asleep instantly.

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There are times there are familiar people in my dreams but in reality they are not existing in my present world and there are times there are people I know in my present life but they have different face in my dream.

Fear of Snake

I am very afraid of snake just imagining it getting near me I cringe. Not so long ago I dreamed of being a beautiful woman with a long black hair with an olive skin living in a tribe wearing a traditional tribal clothing adorned with stones or bones in my forehead, neck and clothing. It feels like I am about to marry a chieftain or son of a chieftain but I don't know what happened, the woman in my tribe standing next to me is jealous of me, in present life she is an older cousin. On that dream I saw myself and her lying in a bed made of hay and a black snake was crawling underneath and black out, I woke up with a fear like there was a snake in my bed. It was like we are executed by a snake bite or we are chosen through a snake... ah dunno what is it!

Fascinated with the Sea

Since I was a child I am fascinated seeing the sea, I always wish that the jeep I rode every afternoon to home will traverse the road near the sea, I felt ecstatic and happy seeing the sea but the truth was I don't know how to swim and I never learned how to do it no matter how I tried. I am also afraid going to the deep part of the sea I guess it has connection of me seeing a dark dirty water last night, maybe on my previous life I drowned at the sea or in a pond. What is interesting when I was sixteen years of age I almost drowned with my classmate in a river.

I have read from other story tellers that there are times things happened like they happened in the past, so I guess I died from drowning when I was sixteen years old on my past life. What do you think?

Familiarity with the Jantar Mantar

When J and I went to India, specifically  in Jaipur (Jantar Mantar) I frantically told him "I have been here, I saw this already!" when it was the first of me seeing it. I cannot recall seeing it in movies nor in photo, I have remember myself walking around the Sundials climbing with one of them to see the stars. When we are in India, I am always mistaken a local of the country.

Out of Tuned Music

Many people who knew me knows that I don't know how to sing, I am out of tuned but there is part of me who believes that on my past life I was a good singer but I cursed it, I wonder if it has relation to the beautiful woman in the train station.

Hospital and Balcony

Growing up I am scared of going to a hospital, furthermore meeting a doctor alone.  I was also scared of heights and looking over a balcony, when I was in grade school I remember how I felt sick looking down from the third floor and I also remember how I felt cold feet every time I look down below the balcony of J's apartment in Korea, I was scared of falling and I always felt like throwing up whenever I looked down I guess it has to do with the balcony and the old man I saw in his hospital pajama, did I committed suicide at a balcony on that life?

I have a lot of questions and I wonder how many lives did I live, which of my dreams are true and are all of my visions are real?  It was said your birthmarks was the cause of your death on your past life, I have one in my forehead and there is something at the back of my head and I have a birthmark in the right side of my body too... I sometimes wonder if these are bullet or arrows point of entry.

Dream of a Plane Crash and a Young Boy

I have been dreaming lately but I am procrastinated to write about them because of my slow internet connection. I have two dreams last  night and my second dream was  somewhat weird, it started by seeing myself in the middle of a busy market and then I heard a loud sound, an airplane emerged from the sky, it is flying low and uncontrollable and then I heard a crashed sound coming from the mountains. The plane crashed, people immediately run towards the crashed site but I run home to get my camera and informed my friends. What is weird, I wasn’t rushing when I felt like I have too, along the way I saw our college instructor and our house became a school. My friends and classmate went out too look over the smoking crashed site and as I looked over, people are falling down from the sky and then one woman fly over directly to us safely, she is from the plane and she told us that she fly with her friends just to buy something, we agreed to go to the crash site to look and see her friends.

The crashed site is full of smoke and flames, there are already a lot of people and doctors, some passengers are still seated on their seat belt, some suffer burns and crying. One woman had burn on her arm and was told it will take nine months before her burn will heal. It looks like there are a lot of survivors than casualties.

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Then my dream hopped, I have seen myself and my eldest aunt looking towards the field. Water is flowing down to the field from the crashed site, we’ve been analyzing in which field it is flowing and we found out it is on the field my father is currently farming, my father went to the field and I followed. The water stopped and I found a lot of coins in the mud, in my dream they are Euros and I excitedly picked 5 and 10 euros, as I am going out of the mud I heard announcement from the crashed site and a foreign young kid run towards me from the bushes asking for help. I walked home with the young boy and while walking I asked him some question, I was told they’re going for a vacation with his brother, step-sister, mother and two fathers, I wasn’t able to asked if she has also two mothers because we already reached home. On my mind, I have the thought of surrendering the boy to the authorities but there is a thought that I want him to keep for the day. At home I found a cousin in our living room and my grandmother preparing the sleeping mat, the young boy went with me and when I saw my mother I told her I found a survivor, my mother is hesitant and a bit agitated seeing us because she said she already mopped the floor and my dream ended, I woke up feeling cold.

I don’t know what is my dream all about, and who is the English speaking boy, is it possibly Cody?

Dream of Seeing and Talking to Ghost

Every night I am dreaming, I used to journal my dreams but the procrastinated me is so lazy to do it and there are times I forgot what was my dream all about when I wake up or after hour passed. My dream last night was so vivid, saw myself talking to a young female ghost and asking her so many questions. Then a group of men wearing white took me and while walking away from the ghost I am talking with I saw a feet of a man wearing white trousers beside her, I am not able to see his face because I didn't look up... along the way I saw many ghost, then I don't know how my dream hop in to different place, the people who took me brought me in front of a house which looks more of a villa and then my dream went to different scenario.

What is weird, on my dream I am not scared seeing ghost around me while in real life I am scared of them. It reminds me what happened a few weeks ago. It was evening and as I went out the door of our old house to go to the store, in my peripheral vision I saw a person in my left side leaning towards our old house, I saw his eyes looking at me and since I am not expecting that there was a person in that dark corner I cried out in surprised and as I look back to say a word, nobody was there, I am all alone... there was no person in there, it was just a motor bike which is fully covered with coat.

My aunt who owns the store, heard me and asked me what had happened to me because she heard me scream in fear and shocked, so I told her what I saw.

Dreams, Sleep Paralysis and My Struggle to Wake Up

Sleep paralysis visited me last night, it feels like I was awake but I am not and as expected I have struggled many times to wake up. It feels like I woke up and then I was back again into sleep state and will struggle again to open my eyes. I felt so ice cold that I am trying to turn off the electric fan and I am trying to reach it out so I could wake up, and when I finally wake up, I was startled why I felt icy cold when it is very warm and hot. Does it mean, my body is already losing its warm and I am already leaving it? Anyway, with the little strength I have I forced myself to wake up and get off the bed, went to the bathroom and wash my face and tried not to sleep again because I don't know if I could wake up myself again.

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Yes, I was so scared to sleep again that I don't want to close my eyes but due to tiredness I fell asleep and dream. I have seen myself with classmates somewhere, we are holding an umbrella and it wasn't clear to me if everyone is wearing black. In our back there is a small tiny shack at the foot of the hill, there's water running, making the ground wet and then my dream hop seeing myself and classmates getting inside our grade 3 classroom but the teacher was different it wasn't our adviser but another teacher in the same grade. She was very happy and teary eye for us visiting and remembering, she was also thankful to our class president and when I went near our teacher she hardly remember who am I and my dream ended.

In the blink of an eye everything can change. So forgive often and love with all of your heart. You never know when you may  not have that chance again.

When I wake up in the morning I have asked my mother if I am trying to turn off the electric fan because I would like to know if it was a dream or I was really trying to do it. She said yes but I wasn't satisfied with her answer because I would like to know more of what I did in my sleep state, but as expected they didn't understand what I had gone through and even gets angry for asking too much details. Nobody is willing to listen, they care less about my story so I told them someone is already dying beside you but they don't even know and they couldn't even care.

Oh, should I also mention that the previous night my mother dreamed that I die, someone told her in her dream that I am already dead.

This wasn't the first time I had sleep paralysis in Korea in our old apartment every night or any time I slept in the day I have nightmares and sleep paralysis, I had a sleep deprivation that time because I was too scared to sleep

Dream of Cat and Snake Fighting

It was been a long time since I write about my dreams because I tend to forget them, when I wake up we’ve been busy collecting water and when it is time for me to sit and write about the dream I had at night I can’t remember what is it already. Wasn't updating everyday as well since there isn't something interesting happening in my life. I just stayed home, sleeping and watching TV.

Anyway, last night, my dream was a bit violent and scary; I saw my cat and white-greenish snake fighting in the field. The snake attacked my cat twice but he managed to move away although I don’t know if he was bitten. The snake was quite long and large; his was body taller than the bushy fields. Scared with what I have seen, I run back home but then I saw a what looks like a dead snake being coiled/tied in a post that made me scared and I already forgot the rest of my dream.

Dream of Someone Chasing Me and Trying to Kill Me

I was too tired to dream these past few nights then I was emotionally unstable yesterday morning after not getting enough sleep the previous night.  When I skipped meals or lacked of sleep I have notice I felt so down and emotionally sensitive. I am like a walking dead, alive from the outside but deep inside me I am so shattered and broken.

Anyway, my dream last night was another chased dream. It was a very tiring dream to run for your lives and I wonder if I didn’t run what would happen to me, am I still going to wake up after being killed in my dream?

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The dream takes place in a forest like setting, I don’t know how it started but I am being chased by someone which seems like a young foreigner teenage boy.  I run for my lives since my chaser is going to kill me, I run like there is no tomorrow and I don’t care if I fell while running or hit some branches.  Then out of nowhere another foreigner came out of rescue, it was like he is the father  of my chaser and he was telling the boy to stop but he keeps chasing me and eventually throw the weapon to hit me, I look at it when it land in the dirt, it was a jungle bolo, I run until I fell in a  ravine.  I saw myself next sitting inside a vehicle that looks like a jeep; it was full of older men and women who are also foreigners, they are all wearing white shirts and shorts.  It was like I was rescued by them, I was so scared, and my body is shaking from fear. They were so loud and happy; they were playing and touching each other like little kids and beside me is an old man sitting quietly.

I don’t know what the meaning of my dream but it feels so real especially when I was chased and trembling in fear after being rescued.

Dream of Walking Along the Empty Street

Walking is one the best exercise to relieve daily stress I have been dreaming of seeing myself walking these past few nights, if not alone I am with a friend. Last night, I have dream of something but I totally forgot what is it when I open my eyes but one thing is sure it wasn't a happy dream because I have tears on my eyes when I wake up. When I return to sleep I have a new dream that I was walking with my mother in a quiet neighborhood shops, we passed along the busy restaurant and outside I saw someone sitting without moving, it was a schoolmate. I look at her upfront and teased her by yelling her name twice and walked away that's when she moved. It looks like we just walked around because I've seen ourselves across the street, I left my mother in one shop and peek from the glass wall of the adjacent clothes store and I've seen faded denim clothes of a child, sacks of it and garments. The clothes seems to be used ones and they were being prepared for something since I exclaimed "that's how they do it", my mother appeared on my back and look where am I looking.

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Then my dream hopped reaching a food place where I saw my friend G eating with someone her cousin presumably, they have a lot of dishes in the table. In my dream it looks like I saw them already earlier, we'd talk something but when I wake up I already forgot what is our conversation all about.

To dream of a market place which is vacant or empty means that you will try to reflect on the good things in life. - auntyflo.com

To see baby clothes in your dream suggests that you are expressing yourself in a more subtle way. Alternatively, baby clothes represent your former ways of thinking or old habits which you have outgrown.  - dreammoods.com

Dream of Walking, Seeing Low and High Tide

Dreams, dreams visit me so often. My dream started seeing myself walking in a street along the shoreline and by looking at the sea it was dried up, sort of low tide so all I can see is mud. I continue walking and the water started coming to the shore which is a sign of high tide, the water is so big and the waves are so strong and high that they went overboard in the street; I am more fascinated than be scared of it. I continue walking in the dirt grassy road which is wet and muddy from the water, but what is surprising my shoes or feet didn’t get dirty. I wasn’t alone in the road, I saw few people coming towards me particularly two women hikers whom I help by holding their hand to cross the muddy dirt.

While walking I am thinking that I am going to pass through the house of a friend and then I reached a road with an intersection, the other road which is cemented is going up in a hill with few small houses and a store, the street is familiar and it feels like I have been there before as a kid and I have played around, I stayed foothill looking up and I took the other road which lead me to a small square and in front of me was a church which is I have been anticipating to see after seeing a photo with priest in them, I have took photo of the church twice using a camera phone but what is making me confuse is the peach brown building doesn’t look like a church it is more of a school or government building, while taking photo a group of students was in the front and they were included in the photo, they posed and smiled especially one particular student. I wandered around until I reach a place where there is a large truck/trailer parked, I have walked around to pick something like a rag and thrown it to the front even though I was told not to mind it and my dream ended.

Dream of Doors and Waiting for Someone

Beautiful Venus continues to cycle back into your dreams and fantasies that’s just part of my horoscope for today. No wonder, I am able to remember my dream last night, it started upon seeing two doors and I have to choose which door to enter, when I made a choice I have found out that the door I have entered is room that which is full of sad emotions, problems and life won’t be an easy ride. I was able to pass through and I have found myself sitting, sobbing and patiently waiting at the other side beyond the close doors while hearing other people laughing happily after being successfully choosing the right door which is full of happiness and free from problems. I don’t know who am I waiting in my dream but when I wake up I am feeling sad, my heart felt so heavy and my eyes are puffy like I just came from crying.

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In waking life, I know who I am waiting. There are times I am experiencing a real need to reach out and connect but my fear is stopping me, the fear of rejection.

Dream of Being Inside a House Searching for Something

On my dream last night I found myself and other people inside a newly built home, it was clean and newly painted.  It looks like we are preparing for a game, we’re handed some cards and we have to find something written in the card. I took a different path and went inside a different corridor while the other people went together, as I am walking alone I saw a kitchen where there are a few females in the counter, one of them is my friend and classmate G. I tried to hid and walked behind a wall so she couldn’t see me but I still end up in the kitchen then I saw myself giving each of them something in shiny yellow plastic (sort of pastillas) and then G and I talked about something and I end up telling her that we all have the same destiny enumerating our circle of friends.

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I went out the house, I was initially hesitating if I should go out or not and then I found myself outside our neighbor’s old torn house looking through the piles of high-heeled sandals it was like I am pressing them if their heels are soft or hard. I picked a shiny sandals with a little dirt in the heels then I saw my aunt coming to me saying something and across the street in the irrigation I saw an older cousin saying something to me as well it looks like he is also searching for something, when I woke I cannot remember what is the conversation all about.

Dream of Carrying a Toddler Boy and a Toddler Girl

Another weird dream visited me last night, I have seen myself caring for our neighbor's toddler son (A), in my dream the boy isn't pleasant looking, I am carrying him in the street but then he felt sick so put I him down so he could rest and then I found myself carrying my cousin's toddler daughter (G) it looks like she just woke up and was given to me to carry around,  she is healthy and beautiful. Carrying  G in my arms we went to A and in my dreams the little boy became a kitten in a box which is sick and been bitten by ants around his mouth and around the box there's fire.

In the street, some of my relatives were seated in a wood bench and was told that we're not included in the food list at the church because our names can't be found, in my dreams I was earlier told about it but I was busy looking after the sick boy but when I heard it again I felt anxious because I know that I have wrote our names and we already pay for it, so I think in my dreams I handed G to someone and run inside the church to double check our names, inside I found everyone busy, then I was holding a notebook where I found only two names, mine wasn't included so I wrote mine again and below those names I found there are set of numbers which I cannot remember when I woke up. Maybe if I remember them I can go to lotto outlet huh?

According to dreamingthedreams.com, carrying a young boy in a dream means carrying burdens. In a dream, a child carried in one’s arms means responsibility, distress and difficulties while a little girl in a dream represents prosperity, wealth after poverty, and ease after a passing adversity. A little girl in a dream also represents something exclusive for the one who saw her in his dream. Carrying a little girl in a dream means release of a prisoner, or if one is suffering from difficulties, or if he is at fault in an argument, or if he is indebted or poor, it means that all of his worries will be dispelled by the glad tidings of this little girl.

Dreaming of Singing While Crying

It was said that dreams are feelings in our waking life that our subconscious mind created.  Some people believed dreams are warnings and they have special meanings for us to understand. Anyway, another weird dream last night, I found myself singing and crying while pushing a bamboo cart (sort of carabao cart) in a dirt road, J is lying in the bamboo cart and I don’t know if he is dead or not, he was just lying in there without moving while my tears are overflowing while singing a song and when my heart felt so heavy he suddenly opened his eyes and smile mischievously like he was saying “it was only a joke”.

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Then my dream hops in, found myself and my mother in a square room without anything in it but a telephone in the wall, table and chairs and a glass window, I am crying and feeling nervous, like  a feeling when you are waiting for a news from overseas. The room looks more like an office long time ago or a prison visitation room, then my mother is talking to someone it sounds like my sister and then all I know I was told that instead of me singing in a contest my sister will do it and I wake up it is nature’s call and my eyes feels like I just came from crying with tears that dried up. When I wake up I still remember the song I am singing but when I return to sleep and wake up again, I already forgot what song was it. Weird isn’t it?

Dreamed of Being in a Church and Seeing a Wedding Photo

Had another wedding dreams last night, although this one is different, it started when I see myself trying to sit beside my father it looks like I just came in wearing a formal dress, the place is quite familiar it is inside the church second row. In front I have seen cousin J sitting in front of a piano with her husband, they were smiling and then an aunt (who’s cousin J’s mother) was called to render a song. She came upfront and took something kept in the piano, I was thinking it was a music sheet; meanwhile my attention was focus into something while my aunt is preparing for her music number. When I look again at the front, the sheet that my aunt was holding is displayed; it isn’t a music sheet but two large photo canvasses, they were put in a painting stand. The photo in the right was me in white wedding dress with my father, in my dream, in the photo I look so elegant, gorgeous and beautiful while the photo in the left is a cousin wearing a black short dress which looks like a prenuptial photo, and it looks like she is sort of jumping or kicking a ball and her black dress is kind of shady in the photo. I don’t know what happen next, all I know everyone is voting which is the best photo of the two, silently in my seat I am wishing that ours will win and wish granted. When it was introduced that my father who’s beside me is the one in the winning photo a handful of camera men came near us and cameras started flashing, the crowd became noisy and I wake up because of nature’s call I keep waking up on the same time every morning, it was hard for me to remember at first what’s my dream, I was mentally blocked for a moment thinking I didn’t have a dream but when I recall about the photo being displayed, I remember my dream instantly.

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Lately, I have been dreaming every night and when I looked for symbolism of my dreams online they were tend to be positive and with this positive thought, I am able to dream and hope for a bright future but when reality sink to me on what is happening in my waking life I felt quite unwell, asking myself if it is true or it is just my delusion and fantasy that there is something good waiting for me at the very end of this long dark tunnel?

Looking at the meaning of my dream here's what I found online,  if you dreamed that you entered a church with a purpose, this dream means that you should not worry so much about the past; in fact, you will face interesting events ahead, which might change your perception of life. To dream of church from inside or outside describes spiritual enlightenment goals. It shows that you are eagerly seeking help from the diving and have desire of spiritual fulfillment.

To see a photograph in your dream indicates that there is a relationship that needs your attention. You are not looking deep enough into the problem. Alternatively, the dream means that you are clinging on to the past or to some false hope. Consider who or what is on the photo.

Understanding the meanings of my dream last night, it is true I worry too much on what had happened and I really seek for God's help when I can't carry my burden anymore. Maybe it is true too that I am clinging on to the past, giving myself a false hope that everything will be alright in due time. There are times I have asked myself if I really need to let go and is there really no hope to fix something that is broken?

But reading something like this, to dream of a piano is a good omen indicating that the dreamer will get rid of sorrow and other negative emotions made me hopeful and I guess you can't blame me for it, isn't it?

Dream of Being a Tribal Woman, Apartment Problem

I wake up by my sudden movement in short my dream wake me up today. As if it is real that there's snake crawling under the bed cover if  I dreamed about aliens the other day,  today I dreamed I am a tribe member, wearing clothes like the old way with charcoal in the face and with a long hair.  Haist, I have small vivid dreams before dreaming being  a tribe member.

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By the way I have blog the other day how it smells here in our apartment after using the sample of air freshener from Febreze I don't know but it seems so rude that when our apartment smells good,the drain smelled especially when the occupants in the upper floor flushed or washed something down, every time the water goes down as we are in the first floor it stinks like drainage canal, so we have no choice but to close the bathroom door, I don't know if taking the black thing in the sink pipe resulted this stench.  We took it the other day so the hair and moss in the pipe will not be stuck but it looks like it is not a good idea, so we might return  it  again and be like a plumber again without tools. Anywya, I have changed my blog theme last night I just feel bored with my old theme which is just a week old maybe, lol.

Wild Dreams and Illusion

There is no particular photo that reminds me, seeing this photo I remind my childhood dream to be a ramp model and somehow beauty queen.  God gave me long legs but not a very good height, well yeah I am taller to my cousins but it is not a ramp model height. What I wish is to inherit my Aunt's height (mother side) because they are so tall at 5'7. Sometimes I wonder  if my childhood accident prevent me from being taller or makes me being tall at this height, lol.

 On my 4th year college I am in the top of being me, I am very confident. One day our institute/department is looking for a student to compete in the upcoming pageant in our school. Well yeah few of my schoolmates/classmates encouraged/asked me to join or if I want to join and then I told  our director I am going to join he didn't believe me because he knew I am joker.

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Well maybe he believes me but seeing my face, my thin posture and knowing my ability he know I am going to put myself in shame. Hahaha! Well I don't think even our director allowed me to join, I am going to join. I am not that confident with my assets (as if I have), I have no talent in singing or in dancing so thinking myself dancing for the opening number makes me to be embarrassed because the whole school will be watching me. So merely it is just a good time and my wishful thinking. I also did not join pageants in our Barangay because mostly it is money contest,  just this past few years that they hosted beauty pageant which is I am already old and some of the contestants are teens. Anyway if ever I will tell someone what is my dream and what do I like, probably they will just laugh on me. So my dream will will remain a wild dream.

When I told Pookie bear that if we got a daughter in the future I am going to join her to beauty pageants, you know maybe I am going to make my dream materialized to her, he disagree a lot. He said he had watched a lot of documentaries how beauty queen's are forced by parents to join a prestigious pageant and how their life ruined by pageants.  So it is a BIG NO to pageants!

Dream of Being Chased, Accidentally Dropped my Toothbrush in the Toilet

Last night I have dreamed of two guys are chasing me in the forest then I found a house in the wilderness, I knocked and someone opened the door, I saw three  or  four young kids and a young girl whom I think pregnant. She is not the mother of the kids it feels like she's a nanny, she is busy cleaning and cooking. When I enter their humble abode, everything is a mess. Kids are playing around, cat poop's are everywhere together with sand and dirt. I have no choice but to smell all of it because it is a matter of life and death. The two guys finally reached the house where am I, I immediately run to a room or in a closet and all I know they took all of the kids and the pregnant woman. Then while I am hiding, there's a sophisticated woman with me, she is sexy and fabulous looking, it sounds like she knows the guy chasing me and she is also hiding from them. Then I don't know what happened next, everything became unclear all I know the kids and the girl was able to returned home but she was raped I guess, and I think I wake up already by movements, Pookie bear is busy preparing his meal.

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I thought if you dream a poop its money, like when I dreamed of tiny little poops of chicken, I got surprised when I received payment that day in ask2link but is quite different today.Just this evening Pookie bear and I are scheduled to go to the gym so as usual I need to brush my teeth before going out. So I pee first and flush the toilet when I opened the medicine cabinet or simply cabinet just in top of it, splasssh! My toothbrush dance with the water and gone, its a new one just opened it yesterday. So I opened another tooth brush then a realization came, what if the tooth brush plugged the toilet? Still we went to the gym and I am not on the mood to squats and leg extension anymore, I just did leg press and I keep asking Pookie bear if I can go home right at that moment, but he wont allow me so I need to wait until its done. What disturbs me is he keep teasing me, and laughing while  I am down, as in very down. Telling me that I need to talk to the land lord because he is not going to help me and etc., I became dramatic and says I will choose to go home and I am in suicidal mode right now.

At home before I took a shower he asked me if I can search online about the case, then I have read online we need a toilet auger or metal craw hanger to get the toothbrush. So to make sure that the toilet is plugged  I throw a lot of tissue paper and flushed it, the result it is indeed plugged because of the toothbrush. So I went out to buy claw hanger or toilet auger if I can't find the first one. I ended buying a claw hanger and we try to find the tooth brush using it but we can't. I have try to asked one of the sales lady if she know where to get toilet auger and she is very helpful to show me the way but the fact that I cannot understand their language it is useless, I just laughed and say okay or I don't remember if what else I have said on my gibberish  way, so I just went to the counter to pay my hangers, guess what I just went it there without looking if there's a line, so the cashier told me something, maybe "Please fall inline" or I don't know maybe no please, so shameful to be absent minded. Haist., He emailed his co-teacher to tell her what happened and the she will be the one to talk with the landlord or translate it for us. Well the result will be until tomorrow when Pookie bear went to school,we are going to know if  the plumber will come.

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So I think that's what my dream last night means I have to keep away from the toilet because I am going to be in shit with it., if you are going to ask who's the two guy chasing me... Pookie bear's answer..the landlord and the plumber. Lol! Well maybe the sophisticated lady who talk to me help me hide is the sales lady, the kids are the young guys and girl paying their stuff  in the counter, and don't tell me the pregnant woman is the chubby cashier? Well it could be because in my dream I hide on their house and I found the claw hanger in their store.Like my dream it is unclear or the case was not resolved, the toilet too is waiting to be fixed. Hopefully I am not going to use it tonight or tomorrow morning or else the garbage collector will be surprised to see something nice in the garbage bags. Lol!

Right now, I am not in the mood to do anything. I am totally disturb especially if someone keep telling my fault and not learning my lesson to close the lid before opening the cabinet and etc., I told Pookie bear I am so sad and I cannot blog hop tonight or do my online task, he is like little tiny cat who rubs his head on my shoulder and give me a hug of consolation while telling tomorrow it will be fine, hmmppp, too late I am already hurt.

Yeah I keep banging things a while ago when I am going to the shop and even tell him that I can a kill a cow right now, his replied  sounds like this"Okay sweetie, kill a cow outside so we are going to have a lot of cow meat, more food"

Dreams and Nightmares

Just wake up two hours ago I am feeling sleepy this two successive days, Pookie Bear scheduled has changed because of the winter season so he wakes up early to go to school for an early class which I am not used too. So when he go to school, I went back to bed and sleep. And I am thankful I can sleep, if you doesn't know I have a little phobia sleeping alone in our apartment during noon time because I always had a nightmare. So since then I don't sleep alone when Pookie bear is at school but today I can sleep even though I am still dreaming but not that bad anymore that I can't breath. The other day I was wake up by neighbors coming downstairs, today I was wake up by the water coming down the apartment maybe the other occupants in the second or third floor is washing their clothes anyway when I wake up my body is sore as well as my eyes.

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I think it depends on the position of our bed, because it also happened before in Seoul but when we changed the bed position I seldom had a nightmare anymore and same here too since we transfer the bed. (Typing this I heard knocks on our door, every time I head knocks I feel afraid and nervous). I think I am being pathetic.

Anyway back to dreaming, there are times I am dreaming and maybe I am already having a nightmare where I am speaking in the middle of the night or grasping for my breath and crying, my room mate I mean Pookie won't bother waking me up. He would just ask me in the morning if I am dreaming because I sounds weird. Lol! The other morning was the funny thing, I think I am dreaming and in my dream I am raising my hand to hit someone or something (I can't remember it fully) but I was get awaken when I finally hit that someone which is no other than Pookie bear I hit him in the head into his surprised. He both get awaken dunno why I am raising my hand...hahaha