Dream of Drowning and Dying

It was been raining hard these past two days and last night was no different. In the middle of my sleep I was visited of the same dream again, the same, because the dream was familiar and I knew that it wasn't the first time I have dreamed of it.

The dream was about me and my friends who are my coworker in this life, we sailed through a wooden boat and it was capsized and me doesn't know how to swim drowned, but I was very peaceful when I drowned, I didn't struggle to live nor to breath, I just accepted it was already my end.

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To dream of dying wasn't new to me, I dreamed of it once and I thought I have wrote that dream, but perhaps I didn't because I can't find it.

On that dream, I am a man lying in the hospital bed surrounded by my wife and two children, I was dying and gasping for air, but everything was very peaceful, that dream was very realistic because I can feel it until I woke up from the dream.

The realization hits me that my dreams about me dying were my past life, I have been trying to do past life regressions these past few months, but I keep jumping back to the present, but there are two new things I saw when I did the regression.

First, it was very dark and all of a sudden a bomb exploded and the only thing I saw was a baby wrap in a pink blanket thrown into the air cause by the explosion, second was seeing a fire camp, it was dark ages, I am black knight I guess, now I understand why I am so interested with the dark ages when I am in secondary grade, I was too excited learning about that age or era.

Dreams, Vision, Connection and Past Life Regression

Every night I always had a dream but most of the time I forgot what is it after going to the bathroom to pee.  I have been blogging my dreams but due to intermittent connection I didn't bother documenting it again.

Anyway, since I was young I knew I was an old soul.  I knew I was born before but I just don't know when and how I live my life and how many times I was born. When I met an accident when I was young, I was hit and run-over by motorcycle I have recollection on how I live my life as a kid, it was like they were flashback right on my eyes and then all I remember I was going down in a spiral and I woke up asking for a water.  I have never told anyone about it because I have thought it was normal.

Moreover, I always have recurring dream of being in a familiar place when in reality I have never been there and I can't remember the place in my dream. I have dreamed often too being a child living in a different planet,  I see fires, burning city, flying metal objects just like how the city in Jean Claude Van Damme's movie Universal Soldier I didn't think about it that much maybe because it was just created by my brain when I was asleep.

Growing up, I enjoyed reading mystery, horror and metaphysical stories. I am fascinated with the theory of reincarnation, I can spend my whole day reading stories about it, lately I have been reading new stories again. It was been my long wish to do past life regression but I just don't know how to find people that could help me with it.  I search about how to do it alone and last night before going to sleep when everything is silent I tried to do it, it was hard for me to concentrate because it is either my hand felt itchy or my foot does,  after trying so hard I saw a vision, I have seen a yellow flower in a vase in a door to the balcony (maybe that's why I prefer yellow flower than the red ones), dark dirty water seeing it from below, a hospital bed then I felt anxious so I went out the imaginary door and rest  to an imaginary chair.  When I went in the door again,  I saw a train coming, I have heard its sound, I am in a station, it wasn't the present era, it was in sepia, the train looks like running through a steam engine there was a lot of people rushing I was feeling frantic because I couldn't see myself, I want to see myself on this period and then I saw a beautiful sophisticated woman wearing sophisticated black dress with a black hat just like how Audrey Hepburn was, she has pearl earrings and she was very beautiful white female like a celebrity, then my vision hop seeing an Asian small old man sitting at the corner of his hospital bed, he is wearing a hospital pajama and as if he is waiting for someone, a visit from family maybe but there was a thought that he is all alone then I came back feeling tired and empty, I fell asleep instantly.

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There are times there are familiar people in my dreams but in reality they are not existing in my present world and there are times there are people I know in my present life but they have different face in my dream.

Fear of Snake

I am very afraid of snake just imagining it getting near me I cringe. Not so long ago I dreamed of being a beautiful woman with a long black hair with an olive skin living in a tribe wearing a traditional tribal clothing adorned with stones or bones in my forehead, neck and clothing. It feels like I am about to marry a chieftain or son of a chieftain but I don't know what happened, the woman in my tribe standing next to me is jealous of me, in present life she is an older cousin. On that dream I saw myself and her lying in a bed made of hay and a black snake was crawling underneath and black out, I woke up with a fear like there was a snake in my bed. It was like we are executed by a snake bite or we are chosen through a snake... ah dunno what is it!

Fascinated with the Sea

Since I was a child I am fascinated seeing the sea, I always wish that the jeep I rode every afternoon to home will traverse the road near the sea, I felt ecstatic and happy seeing the sea but the truth was I don't know how to swim and I never learned how to do it no matter how I tried. I am also afraid going to the deep part of the sea I guess it has connection of me seeing a dark dirty water last night, maybe on my previous life I drowned at the sea or in a pond. What is interesting when I was sixteen years of age I almost drowned with my classmate in a river.

I have read from other story tellers that there are times things happened like they happened in the past, so I guess I died from drowning when I was sixteen years old on my past life. What do you think?

Familiarity with the Jantar Mantar

When J and I went to India, specifically  in Jaipur (Jantar Mantar) I frantically told him "I have been here, I saw this already!" when it was the first of me seeing it. I cannot recall seeing it in movies nor in photo, I have remember myself walking around the Sundials climbing with one of them to see the stars. When we are in India, I am always mistaken a local of the country.

Out of Tuned Music

Many people who knew me knows that I don't know how to sing, I am out of tuned but there is part of me who believes that on my past life I was a good singer but I cursed it, I wonder if it has relation to the beautiful woman in the train station.

Hospital and Balcony

Growing up I am scared of going to a hospital, furthermore meeting a doctor alone.  I was also scared of heights and looking over a balcony, when I was in grade school I remember how I felt sick looking down from the third floor and I also remember how I felt cold feet every time I look down below the balcony of J's apartment in Korea, I was scared of falling and I always felt like throwing up whenever I looked down I guess it has to do with the balcony and the old man I saw in his hospital pajama, did I committed suicide at a balcony on that life?

I have a lot of questions and I wonder how many lives did I live, which of my dreams are true and are all of my visions are real?  It was said your birthmarks was the cause of your death on your past life, I have one in my forehead and there is something at the back of my head and I have a birthmark in the right side of my body too... I sometimes wonder if these are bullet or arrows point of entry.

Dream of Glass Rooms, Cooking in a Firewood Stove and Yellow Turd

Whenever I dreamed during the night I tend to forget that dream in the morning, that's why I seldom wrote and blog about dreams in this blog. My dream last night was so vivid that I am able to remember it,  I found myself in a distant neighbor's house which is also a distant relative, it looks like it wasn't only me who was there.  There are other women from the church in the house, but I have arrived late so I was left outside. Instead of following them through the wooden door, I was left outside wandering about the relative's house, it looks so small but it is quite big with a lot of rooms made of glass, that no matter which side I go and look, all I can see were glass doors and rooms. Since the room is made of glass, I can literally see what is inside the room, but one room is very particular in my dream where I have seen what is inside, decors, bed and the bedding,  saw it twice while wondering how is it possible for a small house to have  a lot of room.

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Then my dream hopped seeing myself cooking on a large wok in the fire wood stove, it looks like I am still in the relative's yard, backyard, presumably and I am cooking for  the women inside the house, then suddenly a cousin wearing a sad face came and sat in the vacant chair, I have asked him something, like if the people inside the house were not finished yet.

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My dream hopped again, seeing myself in the street just above a stone stairs (it looks like I am going to the house under the street/stairs), talking to an Uncle wearing a yellow shirt. In my dream I am telling myself that his wife, my aunt already passed away, as I look down the stairs I saw a yellow poop. I was told by my uncle that another uncle had collapsed and lost consciousness because of stroke and my dream ended as I woke up feeling so cold.

Dreaming and Waking up Exhausted

Mornings should make us refresh and energize but I am not feeling that way three days in a row, I woke up feeling sick, tired and have puffy eyes today , I have a dream again last night and as usual I have forgot what is all about after getting up, I have remember it when I suddenly woke up but when I return to bed and sleep and then wake up again to start my day, I can't remember anymore what was my dream last night aside from a white shirt, people wearing white shirt, my dream the previous night was all about leaves/trees but I can't really remember the story, the first night was I already don't know, hahaha.

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Well, I guess I should write down my dreams before going back to sleep so I won't forget it in the morning. What I hate when I dreamed at night was I felt so tired waking up that as if my soul is wandered the whole night.  I have read that "waking up exhausted after many disturbing dreams is a common experience for many depressed people". LMAO, does it mean I am depressed? And does it mean, when I dreamed every night last year I was too depressed, I was just so procrastinated to write about my dreams those times because I forgot them after doing house hold chores. I have only stop dreaming early this year, which mean my mind was already at peace and my dreams started again to visit me every night, I think I need to eat more ice cream, huh?

Anyway, was feeling blue last night while washing pet dishes. I have remember my grandmother and I suddenly missed her, the thought of she is not around anymore made me sad and before tears fall down my eyes, a leaping frog hops towards me and I  knew it already, my grandmother doesn't want me to feel sad and blue.

My Restlessness and Sensitivity to People's Emotions

These past few days, I spend most of my time reading true ghost stories and sleeping, yep, I am back to my old habit of reading supernatural stories and reading my day to day horoscope. I have been away for a few months, so I was overwhelmed of many stories to read online. To those who don't know me yet, my likes are contradicting to each other. I believe in compassion and caring with other people, but I love mystery thriller/suspense and dark themes in movies/books. I have a different mindset and I have sensitivity in me, I can feel other people's emotions and it is killing me because it seems I can read a bit what is on their mind or feel their emotions at that moment, I think it was one of the reasons why I have social anxiety.

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Hence, I already knew what other people's feeling before they can even speak and to those who know me well, they knew that I seldom stay still, be serious and looked into people faces when conversing because I knew when they are impress or not despite their smiling faces, which actually most of the time irritates my family, they asked me to stop  doing it, which is I am trying to do recently, part of it I think is being shy and not being confident.

Honestly, there are times I can foresee things without knowing it, before J and I parted ways. I have already feel what would happen and what is the six months of travel all about, he actually got pissed off of me taking a lot of photos a few hours before our departing flight, even saying, I act weird that as if we are not going to see each other anymore, and yep we didn't anymore.

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Just like what happened a few days ago, I have already felt it (me being restless) and I already expected what will happen, but I resisted and waited for a friend to speak up. Anyway, I woke up in a wrong side of bed today where the black hole is eating me up again. It was like I went back to my old self feeling blue, but when I accidentally got a long cut in my upper arm early in the morning from a protruding wire, I have returned into my senses that I am still alive and my cut is painful. 😭

Today, I am trying to do some focus and do some blogging chores I have not been doing since I live in my made-up world.  You know what, I wished, I can tell everyone that there are just times I don't feel like talking or responding to messages, which is rude to other people, but this is me finding solitude and peace within myself (re: my unread and not responded messages/comments from friends and tourism classmates).

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Well, RBM will do some falls hunting out of town on Sunday, but unfortunately I can't go with them because it is Thanksgiving Sunday on November 25th, priorities matters and don't know if I can do some hiking again when I have class schedule on weekends too.

Sensitivity, Clairvoyance and Psychic Abilities

Life is too short. My friend/classmate's brother suddenly passed away through a vehicular accident, three of our classmate/friends went to our house so we could go together at the funeral, with us is my cousin's wife which is also our friend.  When we arrived at their home nearby our classmate wasn't there yet, they are on the way with his brother's remains. Two of my friends keep trying to make the atmosphere cool where I keep telling them to behave and not too laugh.

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Many people came when the funeral car arrived with the remains of the deceased, one of them is my older cousin who called me to stand up, she brought me at the corner and she started speaking things I don't want to hear.  I have already closed my senses for unseen being because I have read the more I give attention to them the more my senses and vibration will get strong. My cousin  hold my arm and a bolt of electricity run from my back to my head making me restless and uneasy, my head feels weird like I am developing a stroke and my eye lids started to feel heavy and I almost lost my balance.  I sat but it wasn't the same anymore, I was disturb. When flood of people looking at the coffin became less we decided to go inside also, as looking at the deceased he is neither smiling or frowning. After uttering a prayer I extended condolences to the wife which left me stunned when I look at her face, and not to get attention I went out and before we left my classmate who is the younger sister of the deceased held me and she also said what my older cousin has said to me.

When we came home, my eyelids were still heavy, my old cat was an own on my eyes. To cut the story short my cousin and her mother passed by our house and she asked me what did I see and I told her what I have seen when I hold the hands of the wife and she told me the story how the people working at the "coffin" road died next to another on my disbelief.

On the last day of the funeral as I look again at the coffin the deceased was already smiling, he looks happy unlike the first time I laid my eyes.

At the cemetery during the internement I didn't feel a strong vibration unlike when a distant cousin died, I almost lost balance because the atmosphere was too heavy if not to the umbrella supporting me and if I didn't left immediately that time I think I will start to hear something. I am a scared cow eh.

Anyway, my cousin has a stronger ability than mine he can feel and see things maybe because she frequently used it, so I have told her not to give attention on what he is seeing because time will come he can see them fully. My aunt asked us why did we have this ability and how did we got it, I told her as what I have read most people who have this are people who almost died, I almost died twice when I was run over by a tricycle and when I almost drowned in middle school.

Dream of a Plane Crash and a Young Boy

I have been dreaming lately but I am procrastinated to write about them because of my slow internet connection. I have two dreams last  night and my second dream was  somewhat weird, it started by seeing myself in the middle of a busy market and then I heard a loud sound, an airplane emerged from the sky, it is flying low and uncontrollable and then I heard a crashed sound coming from the mountains. The plane crashed, people immediately run towards the crashed site but I run home to get my camera and informed my friends. What is weird, I wasn’t rushing when I felt like I have too, along the way I saw our college instructor and our house became a school. My friends and classmate went out too look over the smoking crashed site and as I looked over, people are falling down from the sky and then one woman fly over directly to us safely, she is from the plane and she told us that she fly with her friends just to buy something, we agreed to go to the crash site to look and see her friends.

The crashed site is full of smoke and flames, there are already a lot of people and doctors, some passengers are still seated on their seat belt, some suffer burns and crying. One woman had burn on her arm and was told it will take nine months before her burn will heal. It looks like there are a lot of survivors than casualties.

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Then my dream hopped, I have seen myself and my eldest aunt looking towards the field. Water is flowing down to the field from the crashed site, we’ve been analyzing in which field it is flowing and we found out it is on the field my father is currently farming, my father went to the field and I followed. The water stopped and I found a lot of coins in the mud, in my dream they are Euros and I excitedly picked 5 and 10 euros, as I am going out of the mud I heard announcement from the crashed site and a foreign young kid run towards me from the bushes asking for help. I walked home with the young boy and while walking I asked him some question, I was told they’re going for a vacation with his brother, step-sister, mother and two fathers, I wasn’t able to asked if she has also two mothers because we already reached home. On my mind, I have the thought of surrendering the boy to the authorities but there is a thought that I want him to keep for the day. At home I found a cousin in our living room and my grandmother preparing the sleeping mat, the young boy went with me and when I saw my mother I told her I found a survivor, my mother is hesitant and a bit agitated seeing us because she said she already mopped the floor and my dream ended, I woke up feeling cold.

I don’t know what is my dream all about, and who is the English speaking boy, is it possibly Cody?

Dream About Quarreling With Someone, Feeling Sick Afterwards

Not really feeling well since yesterday, wake up with a bad dream yesterday.  On my dream I am having a word fight with someone (an ajumma) which is in reality a woman neighbor I am good terms with since it was the mother of my friend in grade school, I was so angry in my dream so I think I gnashing my teeth while sleep that I woke with a swollen gums, it looks like my lower tooth cuts through it. Actually, I didn't noticed that I have blister in my gums until inspected through it last night, my neck hurts too and it is hard to chew, my tonsil is inflamed from drinking icy pineapple juice in the cold weather. I was feeling dizzy so I drink glasses of pineapple juice, thinking the my blood pressure went up suddenly.

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My gums felt a little better after I gargled warm water with salt but the discomfort is still here and the cold weather doesn't help to make me comfortable today especially with head hurting.

Anyway,  my dream yesterday was so bad that I felt so angry. I really don't know how the fight started all I know I am already having a word fight with an ajumma, I went home and it was already a bit dark, found my mother and other people in a cottage in the middle of the field, then I saw the weird color big moon rise up in the sky, gray clouds was partly covering the moon then I don't know how my dream hop in to another location, we are walking in the street and it suddenly rains and we hurriedly look for a shade under the cogon grass and then my dream went to another location, found myself inside a store/pharmacy buying something, my mother came wanting me to buy something but since I already paid in the counter, we decided to do it next time and my dream ended seeing us standing in the aisle near the door looking at the counters and then when I wake up my gums feel weird already.

Dreaming of an Airplane Crashing

I had the weirdest and scariest dream last night, I saw myself and family inside a plane and presumably J. What is weirdest and scariest was the plane is crashing, the plane is literally going down in full-speed. Everyone is panicking, people are standing and have so much fear, it looks like something is broken within the plane and there is nothing I could do but silently pray. I don't know how my dream went on being landed safely in an unknown airport,  the plane was stalled directly in the airport door, I hurriedly called and grabbed my family down the plane, I was too scared to stay inside of it, I hurriedly took my passport so I could go to the immigration but there was a chaos, we are told we are not allowed to pass through. The immigration will not stamped our passport and we have to return to the plane so we could fly again, the stewardess was calling everyone to board the plane again, some people did but I didn't  move, was too scared to be inside the plane again. I would rather suffer in the airport than fly again with the broken plane.

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When I woke up the dream seems real, I felt dizzy and can still feel the dazed. It feels like I rode a full speed roller coaster.

Dream of Seeing and Talking to Ghost

Every night I am dreaming, I used to journal my dreams but the procrastinated me is so lazy to do it and there are times I forgot what was my dream all about when I wake up or after hour passed. My dream last night was so vivid, saw myself talking to a young female ghost and asking her so many questions. Then a group of men wearing white took me and while walking away from the ghost I am talking with I saw a feet of a man wearing white trousers beside her, I am not able to see his face because I didn't look up... along the way I saw many ghost, then I don't know how my dream hop in to different place, the people who took me brought me in front of a house which looks more of a villa and then my dream went to different scenario.

What is weird, on my dream I am not scared seeing ghost around me while in real life I am scared of them. It reminds me what happened a few weeks ago. It was evening and as I went out the door of our old house to go to the store, in my peripheral vision I saw a person in my left side leaning towards our old house, I saw his eyes looking at me and since I am not expecting that there was a person in that dark corner I cried out in surprised and as I look back to say a word, nobody was there, I am all alone... there was no person in there, it was just a motor bike which is fully covered with coat.

My aunt who owns the store, heard me and asked me what had happened to me because she heard me scream in fear and shocked, so I told her what I saw.

Dreams, Sleep Paralysis and My Struggle to Wake Up

Sleep paralysis visited me last night, it feels like I was awake but I am not and as expected I have struggled many times to wake up. It feels like I woke up and then I was back again into sleep state and will struggle again to open my eyes. I felt so ice cold that I am trying to turn off the electric fan and I am trying to reach it out so I could wake up, and when I finally wake up, I was startled why I felt icy cold when it is very warm and hot. Does it mean, my body is already losing its warm and I am already leaving it? Anyway, with the little strength I have I forced myself to wake up and get off the bed, went to the bathroom and wash my face and tried not to sleep again because I don't know if I could wake up myself again.

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Yes, I was so scared to sleep again that I don't want to close my eyes but due to tiredness I fell asleep and dream. I have seen myself with classmates somewhere, we are holding an umbrella and it wasn't clear to me if everyone is wearing black. In our back there is a small tiny shack at the foot of the hill, there's water running, making the ground wet and then my dream hop seeing myself and classmates getting inside our grade 3 classroom but the teacher was different it wasn't our adviser but another teacher in the same grade. She was very happy and teary eye for us visiting and remembering, she was also thankful to our class president and when I went near our teacher she hardly remember who am I and my dream ended.

In the blink of an eye everything can change. So forgive often and love with all of your heart. You never know when you may  not have that chance again.

When I wake up in the morning I have asked my mother if I am trying to turn off the electric fan because I would like to know if it was a dream or I was really trying to do it. She said yes but I wasn't satisfied with her answer because I would like to know more of what I did in my sleep state, but as expected they didn't understand what I had gone through and even gets angry for asking too much details. Nobody is willing to listen, they care less about my story so I told them someone is already dying beside you but they don't even know and they couldn't even care.

Oh, should I also mention that the previous night my mother dreamed that I die, someone told her in her dream that I am already dead.

This wasn't the first time I had sleep paralysis in Korea in our old apartment every night or any time I slept in the day I have nightmares and sleep paralysis, I had a sleep deprivation that time because I was too scared to sleep

Dream of Books, A Classroom, A Stage and Walking Through It

Had a weird dream last night, I found myself inside a classroom and an instructor was giving us books in white covered, the books were display up front and we are given a chance to get the book we wanted. I choose and took two books because I was scared that the first book I choose doesn't have complete pages while the second book I choose was a bit new but has some words written in it from previous owner, it looks like those books were just donated and given to us.

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Then I don't know else what happened next, I found myself outside the classroom and getting into fight with a female classmate, she hit me twice with a book in the head and it feels quite real. Being driven I fought back but since this classmate was known for being a kind type, I was put to humiliation for fighting back. Then I saw myself below a stage in queue, we are going to walk and ramp in the stage, the classmate I have a fight with went ahead first of me and she received applause from the audience and when it was my turn nobody applause's and it feels like I am being ridiculed for doing something bad, I walk and do turns while in stage and then when I reached the other end, I hide and cried under a long table, I felt bad on how I am treated by many, below the table between sobs I am undressing the shirt I am wearing to wear something new. The floor is full of snow melting and it is a bit cold, I noticed that my bag was on the way when someone older, pretty and popular came, I hid so I won't get noticed.

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I don't know how my dream hopped seeing myself in an apartment, it looks like the apartment we had in Icheon with a Japanese sliding door, it was very clean like it was just like an empty room but near the door where am I standing there was large boxes. Someone I knew was cleaning and I was asked to continue doing it... and I wake up with a feeling of discomfort, pain and rejection.

Dream of Searching a Room in an Apartment Hotel

The other night, I had a dream that my family and I was in establishment that looks like an apartment hotel  we are carrying bags and we are looking for a family room, I am climbing a stairs looking at the doors of the rooms while mentioning the floor. Then my parents and sister went inside one room and says it was the room we are looking for, but I am not satisfied and continuously looking. I went to the room my family went in and it was quite small with one bed so I told them it was not the room we reserved, and while going out the room two doors open from both sides, a woman and a man came out from the two different door it looks like they were both going to a shared bathroom.

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Anyway, I lead my family to the room I have found down below, this room was a little bigger with two beds then I don’t know else what happened but I found ourselves in a hallway where we met an old man cleaning or fixing something, I asked him if he knew the room we are looking for and then he pointed a well-groom house across the green backyard and my dream ended.

Dream of Cat and Snake Fighting

It was been a long time since I write about my dreams because I tend to forget them, when I wake up we’ve been busy collecting water and when it is time for me to sit and write about the dream I had at night I can’t remember what is it already. Wasn't updating everyday as well since there isn't something interesting happening in my life. I just stayed home, sleeping and watching TV.

Anyway, last night, my dream was a bit violent and scary; I saw my cat and white-greenish snake fighting in the field. The snake attacked my cat twice but he managed to move away although I don’t know if he was bitten. The snake was quite long and large; his was body taller than the bushy fields. Scared with what I have seen, I run back home but then I saw a what looks like a dead snake being coiled/tied in a post that made me scared and I already forgot the rest of my dream.

Dream of Kitten, Bus Leaving the Sea and Being a Motorcycle Passenger

It was been a long time since I blog about my dreams, I have been dreaming lately but when I wake up in the morning it is getting hard for me to remember what’s my dream all about. Last night I had a long dream; it started seeing myself in a hut with my family and relatives. It seems like someone is getting married and everyone is busy preparing, I saw myself in adjacent room tending my kitten and then I saw in the window that someone in black cape passed by chasing another being in superhero dress. I went to another room where everyone is busy, I took with me the kitten since I found a set of poop where she’s on leash, and my mother scolded me for bringing the kitten since it might poop as well in the room.

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Then my dream jump seeing myself being a passenger of a motorcycle I am with my friend E’s parents, it looks like our motorcycle can’t accommodate me and we are all rushing home for something. We are traversing a road along the sea when we saw a ship moving towards the shore and when we passed along the port the ship isn’t a ship but a new bus moving out of water and then we started to panic because we are running out of time, it seems like the bus will pick the passengers with movie tickets along the way.  In a curve road I saw the bus stop to pick the first passengers, they were my friend E’s parents, they are well dressed and that’s where I felt shocked, if I saw them getting on the bus who am I riding with? As what I know I am travelling with them in the motorcycle then the motorcycle stop running, it is broken and the people I am with in the motorcycle is the market vendor whom I always saw growing up since she’s friend with my grandmother, dunno who’s the driver and what’s her relation to him. When the motorcycle stop working I was in frantic because the bus might passed along our house and I am going to miss it, so I have thought to call my sister to picked me since they drive ahead of us but what’s surprising I am now with my friend E.

Then I don't know how my dream jump seeing myself driving a bike from my friend E's house and then I went through a church and pray outside, my dream ended when my mother woke me up since I asked her to woke me up early morning so I could use the internet since it is very slow during the day.

Dream of Seeing a Backpack and Riding Down the Hill

These past few days I wasn’t able to journal my dreams because of procrastination. My dream last night happened somewhere uphill, my classmates came to me and fetch me or invited me to go with them downhill, I have agreed because it feels like I was being held inside the house for a long time and it will be my first time to descend the place and while we are getting ready, there is a not so old woman who came by and the first thing I have noticed was her new black backpack in her back.  I was told she will give it to me if I like the bag so I feel so excited receiving it for free since it was new.

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Then we board something it isn’t clear if it is a board, wagon or cart, it was a lot of fun going down the slope, the older woman came down with us in a different board with someone, on the way I am able to take a glance at the backpack on her back thinking it is going to be mine for free. When we reached the foot of the hill I have seen an older cousin standing in front of the food cart, she bought some food and included a piece for me but I decided to buy more food and my dream ended.

Dream of Digging Potatoes and Carrots

On my dream the other night I have found myself digging in front of my relatives store, I didn’t even dig deeper but I already found potatoes, I was so excited finding a haul so I keep digging because it seems like someone already tried digging but didn’t find something.

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I put my haul on a little pail and continue digging even more but I didn’t only find potatoes but tiny carrots and other root crops as well, they were so many that I decided to share some to my uncle who own the store since I am digging in their area, I put them on a white pail then my dream ended.

Dream of Someone Chasing Me and Trying to Kill Me

I was too tired to dream these past few nights then I was emotionally unstable yesterday morning after not getting enough sleep the previous night.  When I skipped meals or lacked of sleep I have notice I felt so down and emotionally sensitive. I am like a walking dead, alive from the outside but deep inside me I am so shattered and broken.

Anyway, my dream last night was another chased dream. It was a very tiring dream to run for your lives and I wonder if I didn’t run what would happen to me, am I still going to wake up after being killed in my dream?

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The dream takes place in a forest like setting, I don’t know how it started but I am being chased by someone which seems like a young foreigner teenage boy.  I run for my lives since my chaser is going to kill me, I run like there is no tomorrow and I don’t care if I fell while running or hit some branches.  Then out of nowhere another foreigner came out of rescue, it was like he is the father  of my chaser and he was telling the boy to stop but he keeps chasing me and eventually throw the weapon to hit me, I look at it when it land in the dirt, it was a jungle bolo, I run until I fell in a  ravine.  I saw myself next sitting inside a vehicle that looks like a jeep; it was full of older men and women who are also foreigners, they are all wearing white shirts and shorts.  It was like I was rescued by them, I was so scared, and my body is shaking from fear. They were so loud and happy; they were playing and touching each other like little kids and beside me is an old man sitting quietly.

I don’t know what the meaning of my dream but it feels so real especially when I was chased and trembling in fear after being rescued.

Dream of Walking Along the Empty Street

Walking is one the best exercise to relieve daily stress I have been dreaming of seeing myself walking these past few nights, if not alone I am with a friend. Last night, I have dream of something but I totally forgot what is it when I open my eyes but one thing is sure it wasn't a happy dream because I have tears on my eyes when I wake up. When I return to sleep I have a new dream that I was walking with my mother in a quiet neighborhood shops, we passed along the busy restaurant and outside I saw someone sitting without moving, it was a schoolmate. I look at her upfront and teased her by yelling her name twice and walked away that's when she moved. It looks like we just walked around because I've seen ourselves across the street, I left my mother in one shop and peek from the glass wall of the adjacent clothes store and I've seen faded denim clothes of a child, sacks of it and garments. The clothes seems to be used ones and they were being prepared for something since I exclaimed "that's how they do it", my mother appeared on my back and look where am I looking.

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Then my dream hopped reaching a food place where I saw my friend G eating with someone her cousin presumably, they have a lot of dishes in the table. In my dream it looks like I saw them already earlier, we'd talk something but when I wake up I already forgot what is our conversation all about.

To dream of a market place which is vacant or empty means that you will try to reflect on the good things in life. - auntyflo.com

To see baby clothes in your dream suggests that you are expressing yourself in a more subtle way. Alternatively, baby clothes represent your former ways of thinking or old habits which you have outgrown.  - dreammoods.com

Dream of Walking, Seeing Low and High Tide

Dreams, dreams visit me so often. My dream started seeing myself walking in a street along the shoreline and by looking at the sea it was dried up, sort of low tide so all I can see is mud. I continue walking and the water started coming to the shore which is a sign of high tide, the water is so big and the waves are so strong and high that they went overboard in the street; I am more fascinated than be scared of it. I continue walking in the dirt grassy road which is wet and muddy from the water, but what is surprising my shoes or feet didn’t get dirty. I wasn’t alone in the road, I saw few people coming towards me particularly two women hikers whom I help by holding their hand to cross the muddy dirt.

While walking I am thinking that I am going to pass through the house of a friend and then I reached a road with an intersection, the other road which is cemented is going up in a hill with few small houses and a store, the street is familiar and it feels like I have been there before as a kid and I have played around, I stayed foothill looking up and I took the other road which lead me to a small square and in front of me was a church which is I have been anticipating to see after seeing a photo with priest in them, I have took photo of the church twice using a camera phone but what is making me confuse is the peach brown building doesn’t look like a church it is more of a school or government building, while taking photo a group of students was in the front and they were included in the photo, they posed and smiled especially one particular student. I wandered around until I reach a place where there is a large truck/trailer parked, I have walked around to pick something like a rag and thrown it to the front even though I was told not to mind it and my dream ended.