Care Giving Stress and Unwanted Toxic Feeling

Many people are so busy with their day to day activities that they couldn’t take care of their older loved ones, and with these caregivers fill these gaps. It was only lately, I realized how hard is care giving job, since I arrived in Tarlac, I have no proper meal for a few days and no proper sleep until today. Whereas, my sister keeps teasing me that I will lose weight in no time.

My grandmother is like a little baby, asleep during the day and in full battery during the evening, she won’t let me sleep, she keeps whimpering and waking me up all night until early morning.  It stresses and depresses me out, I became too sensitive, emotionally dependent and it is becoming toxic feeling that I have to let go of everything with my online/blogging friends, the friendship, the laughter and the connections.

Yes, I decided to let go of my online world. I have realized it wasn’t becoming healthy, I am being emotionally dependent and I am forgetting my real world, I am forgetting I have to live outside and not in the internet, where everything is superficial and mostly fake according to a friend.


I wasn’t able to let go of my online world, so here am I blogging again and writing into  my hearts content.

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Stressful Life Online and Food Wasting

I have been busy lately that I have no more time to open my blog and post, my scheduled post ends the other day on my other blog so I am force to log-in today and blog about something, on what is happening around me. Oh well aside from being busy nothing more, my computer gives me problem keeps hanging out maybe because I am already low in memory, got a lot of pics of everything eh.

As the title says when to say time-out, I declare holiday for myself but dunno if I can follow it. Before I slept today, my eyes is all red as if I have sore eyes, it looks they are over used in front of the computer, so I have no choice but to rest and now I am awake very early in the morning even it is already lunch time, it is still early for me. Haha,

Pookie bear is little angry with me these past few days because I keep leaving food behind until there expiration date, that means more and more food are not allowed here in our apartment, I wonder what would I eat in the next few days if it keeps on happening, I have a packed of buns where which is still more than half and I have to eat it all before it expired which will be tomorrow or else no more buns like no more bread for sandwich. Huhuhu, wish me luck I might choke eating them.

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